Productive Weekend

It's all starting to come together. For the first week I felt like a chicken with it's head cut off, running around doing homework without a system of organization or finesse. Things have certainly changed. I have made great use out of the sticky note and planner and have organized myself so I know exactly what I need to do and when it is do. I'm a planner by nature, and enjoy knowing exactly what the week has in store for me. The biggest roadblock for me in high school was procrastination. But since coming to college I have cut out all distractions besides cross country and school. With less things to distract me, it is much easier to turn my boredom into productive lengths of time. My biggest fear will always remain the thing that eludes me though. I hated coming into class in high school and realizing that there was some assignment that was due that day. I still come into college classes where I know nothing is due but I find myself asking all my friends anyway. Hopefully through repitition I will become a little more confident in myself as a student, and stress out a little less. Stressing over school work has it's benefits, you usually remember 90% of what you have to do, but it also just wears you down. Usually by 3:30 I'm completely mentally exhausted and ready for a nap. If not for cross country at 4:00, I would probably have trouble finding motivation to do anything the rest of the night. Cross country has a way of clearing your mind and recharging you for the rest of the night. It's funny because thats not how most people would imagine running 10 miles, as a recharge tool, but it does exactly that. Bouncing between cross country and school (two things that require all my focus) is difficult at times, but the benefits it provides and the learning experiences I will gain will be invaluable to me in my future endeavors. Another thing that kind of has me worried is what my grades are going to look like after this week. I feel like I have done quality work, but it is so hard to read the teacher's expectations this early in the game. In high school, those first papers always seemed to not get the grade I wanted, but they served as a guide to how I need to improve. Hopefully I'll get some good feedback from my teachers this week. Even if the work doesn't reach my teachers' expectations I hope they tell me why, the very worst thing to do would be to just say it was bad and not give me tips on making it better. As I said before, these first grades help me decide where I need to go from here, even if they are a small portion of my grade.